I think it’s pretty safe to say that we’re ALL sick of winter. It’d probably be different if we were used to this much cold, this much snow, and this much ice — but we’re not. This has been a terrible season here, one of the worst in the past twenty years, and I’ve pretty much had it. ‘Course, this tolerance level translates to staying indoors a lot, blue moods, and a low tolerance for b.s. of the “social media” variety. I suppose it could be my sheer lack of patience talking, but commentary on what people are commenting on in the way that people are supposed to comment on it… Well, I’m guessing I’m not the only one who’s going through seasonal bleh-ness. Apparently my trip to San Francisco didn’t put a big enough dent in my SAD.

Anyway, I could be channeling all of this energy into writing, but partly what’s happened is that I had a mad, mad crazy rush of hundreds of thousands of words, outlines, etc. and then? Full stop. Or rather, partial stop and waiting on approvals, etc. I only have myself to blame, really. But, I’m human. Shocking, I know. I mean… Writers are human with biological bits outside of words? THAT’S CRAZY TALK.

Excuse my French but vas te faire encule vieillard hiver. Yep, I used Google Translate for that one. (Note to self… Improve my French…) The only way I know how to move forward is to change my routine, so I’m segmenting my social spheres a bit by joining Ravelry (Thanks again, Jonna!) and Fitocracy (WOO!). The first is a knitters/crocheters/bead weavers website and the second is for fitness.

I will not be defeated by a sharp-angled ice man who spews cold spit to get his point across.

Mood: POWER UP
Caffeinated Beverages Consumed: Addiction not managed and nah, nah, nah I don’t care.
Work-Out Minutes Logged Yesterday: Phew! That controller was really heavy.
In My Ears: Motherboard by Daft Punk
Game Last Played: Sonic All Star Racing
Book Last Read: Witches Abroad by Terry Pratchett
Movie Last Viewed: Can’t remember. It was some horrifically awful “but my husband t’aint really dead” movie.
Latest Artistic Project: *Still* *still* *still* need to take pictures… It’s on the list!
Latest Fiction/Comic Release: Last Man Zombie Standing
Latest Game Release: Freedom Flyer
What I’m Working On: Primarily tie-in games work and novels.

As soon as I reached an interim between The Day JobTM projects, I got sick with a bad case of the flu. I normally don’t get hit like this, but so it goes. Two weeks later… Finally back on the recovery train, then got a migraine. Thanks to some TLC, I’m back to my normal regularly scheduled madness. HOPE THIS STAYS THAT WAY!

Anyway…

I wrote an update on VioletWar.com about why I’ve stopped and started that particular book a million, zillion times. More to the point, I also mention what I plan on doing about it. My long overdue post pretty much boils down to a bad case of project anxiety. (A.K.A. Impostor Syndrome.)

I’m going to be checking in there once a week, but won’t be cross-posting the updates here. When the novel is done and off to beta readers, I’ll give you a heads up.

Mood: The blockage identifieth hath put me out of sorts.
Caffeinated Beverages Consumed: Yeah, screw tracking that today.
Work-Out Minutes Logged Yesterday: I suppose I should get on this.
In My Ears: Another gorramn snow plow.
Game Last Played: Sonic All-Stars Racing
Book Last Read: The Lies of Lock Lamora by Scott Lynch
Movie Last Viewed: GLADIATOR
Latest Artistic Project: *Still* *still* *still* need to take pictures… It’s on the list!
Latest Fiction/Comic Release: Last Man Zombie Standing
Latest Game Release: Freedom Flyer
What I’m Working On: Primarily tie-in games work and novels.

I recently drew upon a long list of sources to re-research and refresh my memory about the witch trials. There is a lot of Hollywood-itis associated with what happened in the 1690s and prior to that as well with respect to the Inquisition and whatnot; so the approaches to the topic in general aren’t as nuanced in film as you might find in books. The side effect to research, though, are always more questions and more books to read. I talked a little bit about this before, when I mentioned I was a hobby anthropologist, but it always, always happens when I dive in deep. But here? I can’t think of anything more profound than centuries of routing out heretics, then witches.

Imagine being a naturalist or an artist or even an introvert. People in your town think you’re weird. Maybe the local authorities do, too. You have a family. Wife, husband. Kids. Even though you consider yourself a good Puritan, you have a few folk beliefs. You don’t exactly “fit the ideal Puritan profile” but you’re not self-conscious about that. You don’t have the time to be because you’ve got crops to tend, family to raise, homestead to maintain. You’ve had a couple of family emergencies and had to miss church. The weather has been really crappy lately. For whatever reason, someone in town added one plus six and got two: you’re a witch. You get arrested and you don’t even know who accused you. By the time the Magistrates begin their examination, you think the whole thing is so incredibly ridiculous you make a smartass comment. Because you didn’t respond in the precise modest tone of voice the judges expect — you are stripped naked and examined further for “witch’s marks.” You may be tortured until you confess. While you’re awaiting Trial, you get tossed in jail. That costs money. Your family has to pay for your jailtime. If they can’t, even if you’re found innocent, your house and everything you own is confiscated. Then the Trial starts. You’re up in front of the Grand Jury. Their decision is absolute. Guilty? You’ll hang. Innocent? You’ll be released. Broke, but free.

Part of the reason why I feel the 1690s in particular is great fodder for alternate history in games and fiction, is for the same reason why I’m attracted to the Westward Migration and Civil War–to understand a thing, even if it was horrible, I need to experience it. Then, I share my outlook with players or readers through a creative lens. Sometimes I have word count limitations; other times the point of a story isn’t about the events, but the characters. Either way, when I write alternate history, I’m using reality to ground my worlds and characters much in the way I use futurism to write science fiction. Part of the reason why I can get away with word conservation is because I prefer a more realistic, tangible sense to my worldbuilding. Even if it’s twenty-percent based on reality, then I will have a stack of books beside me to read up on that aspect I’m drawing from.

Alternate history is a lot of fun for me to write, because I get to do lots of research and dive deep into different viewpoints. The challenge is balancing how much history to include depending upon the scope of the project. Some of the decisions I make are impacted by word count, but also the goal of what I’m trying to accomplish. There’s a huge difference between writing to accurately represent a time period–which in my mind steers more toward non-fiction or fiction without supernatural elements–versus writing for suspension of disbelief. The minute vampires enter into a historical setting, then that changes the landscape.

In the end, I’m not looking to be precisely historically-accurate because that’s not my job. I’m not a historian or a history professor. My role as a writer, as a game designer, is to write stories and design games for your entertainment. To do that, I feel any time I dive into alternate history I have to do my homework to understand what really happened from multiple viewpoints before I can fictionalize it. This is how I fall in love with the work. And, if I’m not in love with what I’m doing? Then I suspect you won’t be, either.

Did I “fall in love” again with the witch trials? Well, that project’s still in development. When it’s released, though, you can be the judge.

No pun intended.

Mood: I am zen.
Caffeinated Beverages Consumed: Addiction managed.
Work-Out Minutes Logged Yesterday: 40 words a minute
In My Ears: Wax
Game Last Played: Battle Nations
Book Last Read: The Lies of Lock Lamora by Scott Lynch
Movie Last Viewed: THE AWAKENING
Latest Artistic Project: *Still* *still* *still* need to take pictures… It’s on the list!
Latest Fiction/Comic Release: Last Man Zombie Standing
Latest Game Release: Freedom Flyer
What I’m Working On: Primarily tie-in games work and novels.